Monday, August 27, 2012

Here I Am

I awoke to the last week of my twenties. And as I went about routine, I wondered, is every decade this life changing?

In ten years, I've lived abroad, finished college and married my forever love. 

I've been pregnant three times,  birthed eight babies, and said good-bye to five. 

I have loved deeply and mourned deeply. 

I have experienced grace. Oh, sweet grace, to face tragedy and still live. 

As I showered with my summer shampoo....the one that smells of coconut and sunshine, a cool autumn breeze flowed through the window and I felt it. 

Transition. A change. 

Something new.

My baby, perhaps our last, turns one year old next week. Yes, change.

We decided, just last week, that it would be better for Sylas to be schooled in our home than in a classroom. 

At least for this year.

Excitement fills me, but long skinny tendrils of apprehension try to choke it out. Do I know how to do this?

Do any of us know how to do this? But, oh, yes. 

Grace. 

That sweet grace. There is help along the way.

8 comments:

  1. I just love your heart and have missed your writing.

    Praying for whatever ever is around the corner.

    Jen

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  2. http://homeschoolfreaks.com/videos/homeschooling-special-needs-kids/

    Check this link out.. about a friend of ours... might just help inspire you. You can do so much with HIS help.

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  3. Good to "hear" from you. God's grace is such a sweet, undeserving gift. So thankful. :)

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  4. you're back!!

    hope you and your family have a a wonderful Summer!

    best of luck with home schooling!

    God is great!

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  5. You have been an inspiration to me when I have been at my lowest point - it was then that I found this site. I don't think that you will ever do this journey alone - you have too many people willing you to stay strong.

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  6. Welcome back doll...you have been missed. It sounds like a big birthday is coming or has gone..i don't know. But, Happy Birthday to you sweetie if this is the case. I love coming here to read your words.
    Lori

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  7. Happy birthday and prayers as you embark on teaching Sylas at home. I don't feel like I could do it either, but God does have a way of meeting us in our place of weakness.

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  8. the way you write instantly brings tears to my eyes. you have such a beautiful story and a beautiful way of telling it.

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