Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Thankfulness Day Three

I turned, and there she was, standing in my kitchen. 

She wasn't supposed to be home. Not until Christmas. 

My sweet baby sister, Kyrsten. Giving of her time working at the Dream Center in Los Angeles is home for three days. 

Words cannot describe how thankful we are.

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

Thankfulness Day Two

On Sunday we were at my parents house and Sylas put his name badge from Children's Church over his eyes. He was trying to get around without his vision. 

Ryan looked at me and said, "I'm so glad he can see." I was caught off guard, realizing that all too often I get caught up in Sy's struggles and forget to be thankful for all that he has overcome. 

He weighed 15 ounces, for goodness sake. 

And look at him! He can see.

 I'm so very thankful.

Monday, November 21, 2011

Thankfulness Day One

Life is busy. It just is.

But this week, I'm determined to be purposeful in my thankfulness. 

It's how I want to live really, with a thankful heart.  So many other things creep in and push the thankfulness out. I'm glad for the reminder of a National Holiday to get me back on track.

Today I'm thankful for a giggly girl, who shows me that even in death, there is joy to be found and there is always hope for the future. He [Jesus] will make all things new.

What is filling your heart with thankfulness today?

Friday, November 11, 2011

In 24 Hours

I snap and I'm harsh. 

I hug and I'm gentle. 

Some days I want more. 

And others, less is more.

My mind screams, desperate for peace.

I'm at war within myself. 

I'm two people. Trying to shed the old and become the new.

Before bed they love to read, The Night the Scary Beasties Popped Out of my Head, and inside I ask, "Why won't they pop out of my head?"

At Starbucks, I showed August off to the Barista and she rubbed her own burgeoning belly. She's due in the Spring she says and they can't think of a name for their boy. 

Before I could stop myself, I say, "What about Bennet?" At the sound of his name tears form and I'm overcome, thankful for the dim lights at the counter. 

She loves the name [of course she does] and is going to mention it to her husband. My heart is torn. 

want to say his name every day. It makes me happy and sad. But mostly happy and that feels a little bit like healing.

As I was feeding August upstairs, Ryan burst in the room. "It's 11:11 on 11-11-11," he said. "Let's kiss."

So we did.

Monday, November 7, 2011

Too Much of a Good Thing [A Giveaway]

Suck suck swallow breathe.

Gentle rhythm, soothing to the soul. 

We are getting there, he and I. It's been a battle, but it's been worth fighting for. 

August - 3 1/2 weeks

Ryan said I could feed triplets. And it's true. 

While many women [especially those who have battled with a horribly stressful low milk supply] might think oversupply is a wonderful problem to have, it doesn't come without it's challenges. And the truth is that many mamas give up breastfeeding because of their abundance

I know. I gave up with Ivy. I tried for 6 weeks and unfortunately did not seek out the help that was needed and went to exclusively pumping milk for 11 and a half months.

Why is something so natural, so difficult?

With August, I have been determined. I've joined breastfeeding boards, talked to 3 different lactation consultants, attended breastfeeding groups [or boob groups as they are so endearingly called] and have gone to extreme measures [cabbage leaves on the breasts, multiple doses of sudafed] to lower my supply. 

August is 9 weeks today and it's getting better. Slowly. Every feeding no longer feels like it's all hands on deck with crying and gulping and sputtering.

August - 6 weeks

Suck suck swallow breathe.

We are getting there.

August has his 2 month check on Wednesday. I'm anxious to find out his weight. He has been our fastest grower.

If you're up for a giveaway, feel free to leave a comment guessing his weight and height and the person that is closest to both numbers, without going over will win a $10 giftcard to Starbucks. Pumpkin Spice Latte, Baby.

[To help you in your guessing, at 3 weeks of age, August was 8 pounds 14 oz. and 19 1/4 inches long]. 

Winner will be announced Wednesday evening.

UPDATE: Due to a sick Sylas and Ivy, August's 2 month check has been moved to Friday afternoon. I'll post the winner after that. Keep the guesses coming!

Congratulations to Little Misses' Mama who guessed August's weight and height exactly!!!! 12 pounds, 2 oz and 21 inches long. Great job!