Friday, July 22, 2011

Four Years - Lucia

Lucia Rae. Sweet soul. Forever our oldest...if only by a minute. 

We had you for six beautiful weeks. 

This morning I awoke with a song in my head. Your daddy wrote it for you mere days before you passed...when we thought we would get to keep you.

You are forever missed and always loved.

Baby Lu
by Daddy

Sunbeam, shining down while you daydream
Don't you know that the sun dreams
To shine warm and beautiful as you

Jealous Moon, reflection so true
Wishes she could reflect God
As beautifully as you

Beautiful
Beautiful
Beautiful Baby Lu

Diamond sky, watching over the world at night
Can't take my breath away
Like the diamonds in your eyes

You light up my life
You make my day bright
You are my beautiful light

Beautiful
Beautiful
Beautiful Baby Lu

Monday, July 11, 2011

Like Me

Sometimes I don't like having so much influence. I don't want their actions to reflect how I'm feeling.

Last week was rough. I came down with a head cold and then yesterday, I was throwing up all the freaking day long. 

These past months, life has been upended.


I've been tired and ornery and fussy and in turn, so has he. 

But not today. 

Today we worked hard to be more ourselves. To laugh and play and un-upend things.



To give each other the benefit of the doubt. 

To love

The two of us? I think we needed this day.


Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Check, Check. Reality Check.

Potty training my children has always been really scary for me. It was this big unknown and seemed insurmountable. Then one day a couple of months ago, Sylas said to me, "Mom. I think I need to wear underwear now. And I think I need to use the toilet."

Huh?

You know the crazy thing, is that he is and he does. It was that easy. 



I had 2 goals for Sylas before this new baby arrives. 

1. Potty trained  

At this point I'm feeling pretty good  about myself. 

Then...

2. Getting rid of the pacifiers

Umm...yeah.

Looks like we have our work cut out for us.