Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Perfect (a Haiku)

Wind swept baby hair.
Soft chubby limbs running FAST.
Summer perfection.

[Taking Steph up on her haiku challenge].

Friday, June 25, 2010


Sylas turned 3.

Then he got sick, so his party was delayed.

But the day he felt better, we had a small party with just family. Do you remember how he wanted a purple cupcake? Well, he got one. Oh, yes he did.

Complete with candles.

Sunshine, family, a trampoline and a big purple cupcake...

What else does a 3 year old boy [or any of us] need?

Monday, June 21, 2010

We Heart Misha Lulu

So many of you have written, asking about Ivy's clothes. Especially this dress and this one. Both of these darling creations are by one of our favorite designers, Misha Lulu. Karen, the creativity behind these designs is fabulous and I love the vintage fabrics and shabby chic look of her clothes.

Right now, the mini social is hosting a 50% off sale of almost all of the Misha Lulu spring/summer line! And if you use the code, "NUMBER1FAN," you'll get free shipping! You really can't beat it.

P.S. I was in no way compensated for this post. But if you click over through this link, or sign up using my email address (, after you make your first purchase, I'll receive some bonus bucks to do more shopping at the mini social.

Friday, June 18, 2010

Up and Down and Up

This week I wrote, but only on Bennet's day. Along came June 14 and 15, the days we said good-bye to Tryg Brenton and Lincoln Sean, and my babies on earth [especially Sylas] were sicker than the day before. And the day before that. Coughing and more coughing ringing in my ears. I couldn't hear anything else. I couldn't think anything else.

And when it couldn't get any worse, Sylas coughed so hard he threw up all over [I mean all over] our new couch. The one we've had for three weeks. The one I need to take a picture of because I love it so much.

Deep breath.


I'm coming up for air. Sylas is starting to feel better and I bought some ruffly clothes for myself.

What is it about ruffles that can make a girl feel better?

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Until I See You

Three years ago, today, sweet Bennet. I held you for the first time and the last time [on this earth].

And though today was spent cuddling and loving and doctoring your two under the weather siblings, there was still so much capacity in my heart for loving you. For missing you.

In some strange, totally makes sense way, I wish you were sharing in their summer cold. I want to wipe your nose and give you nebulizer treatments and snuggle your feverish body on the couch. I am, and will always be your mom, but I miss being your mom. I miss you.

I love you, my first born boy. And I will always miss you....

Until I see you.


Thursday, June 10, 2010


3 years ago today, our boy was born much too early, weighing only 15 ounces.

[1 day old]

Against all odds, he survived.

[1st time being held at 5 1/2 weeks old.]

He turned 1.

He turned 2.

And now, before our very eyes, he has grown into a kid. I cannot believe he is 3.YEARS.OLD!

Our hearts are so full this day. Though 3 years ago, this day with filled with fear and worry as our children were coming too soon, that's not how we live. June 10th is a happy day. A day of celebration. A day when we put on our best clothes and pull out the good dishes. It's the day Lucia, Bennet, Tryg, Lincoln, Sylas and Cadence were born.

It's the day they lived.

Happy Birthday!

Tuesday, June 8, 2010


Last week Ryan and I watched the new Alice in Wonderland. It was so beautifully creative and inspiring and there is one part I cannot get out of my head. I don't even remember the context. I think Alice was refusing to do something, or too afraid to do something? Anyway, the Mad Hatter looked at the grown-up Alice and said...

"You're not the same as you were before. You used to be much more...muchier. You've lost your muchness."

I feel that. I feel different than I was before. It's not just losing the babies or being busy with the babies I have now. I've become apathetic in so many areas...exercise, house-keeping, working on my relationships [especially my relationship with God].

I've lost my muchness.

It's time to get it back.

Friday, June 4, 2010


Hi Friends. My blog is in the process of a face lift, so bear with me as things will be changing/looking different over the next few days.

Hope you all are having a lovely weekend.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

All Filled Up

I've mostly been unplugged since coming home from the cruise. Spending my time loving and cuddling and not too much time blogging, tweeting, emailing, blog reading and all of that.

I'm so refreshed. My life feels full.

Ryan had a few days of vacation that had to used by June 1, so he only worked 2 days last week.

And over the weekend we summered it up. We swam, we played and we spent a gazillion hours outside.

{the more time my baby spends outside, the redder her hair gets. it's so strange and lovely}

On Sunday, I wore my favorite dress for Ryan's official licensing as a pastor. I even put on heels, which made me look a bit leggy even though I'm not very tall. It felt good.

The favorite part of the whole weekend? Meeting Uncle D's new puppy.

Winston is gorgeous and so wonderfully gentle with my children. Sy said Winston is his favorite puppy in the whole world and Ivy showed Winston her love by trying to get as close to him as possible, which for her is sitting on his head. Later, she tried feeding him some milk from her bottle, so I think he felt the love.

Now if you'll excuse us, we're off to do some more summer-ing.