Monday, October 4, 2010

It will. It has to.

I'm here. I am. Just feeling the weight of everything lately. I have questions, not many answers and a lot of tears. I wonder if it will always be like this. Seasons of sorrow coming and going.

Yesterday, we sang a song in church and the words washed over my soul like a healing balm.

Joy will come in the morning
Riding on the wings of the dawn.
I know
Joy will come after mourning
As surely as you are God

Joy will come, believe
Joy will come, joy will come



Joy will come like the harvest
Reaping for the tears that we sow
I know
Joy will run to the farthest place
As surely as you are God

Joy will come, believe
Joy will come, joy will come



What is this Hope I feel
It's helping
What is this peace beyond understanding
You're still the sovereign Lord
There's healing in your wings

Joy will come, believe
Joy will come, joy will come



*Joy Will Come by Desperation Band.

13 comments:

  1. Beautiful post.
    I'm sorry the waves of grief have been so strong lately.

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  2. Brianna, I know that I don't really know you, but I can't help but think that we would be kindred spirits if we ever met in real life. Remember that God loves you like you love all of your children. Rest in his arms and soak up his love.

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  3. Bri - You have already started feeling better and you may not even realize it. By putting yourself out there for us to share in your ups and downs, you have let us somehow help with your load. I'm going through a divorce and it has not been easy many questions, second guessing myself, etc... my struggles are different than yours, but none the less, I've learned to open up and share, and this lightens my load. My love and prayers to you

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  4. I am thinking of you...I know the ups and downs of grief have been really hard on you the past few months...I am praying for you girl!

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  5. I've been thinking about you, I do hope all is ok. Or at least getting better every day. :)

    Steph

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  6. You have beautiful children! I am so sorry you have to go through this life without 5 of them. I know that must be unbearable some days. Thank you for sharing your heart with us. I'll be praying for you.

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  7. Bri, I put my prayers out there for you... I have never experienced the total magnitude of loss that you have, however I did lose a child last year to miscarriage. When that little life slips away from you, a piece of your heart goes with them... I just like to think that that open place in your heart is ready for the future children you will have, love and cherish.

    I know it is terrible grief, and it is something that doesn't ever totally go away. I send prayers of strength and courage!

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  8. You are loved and you are not forgotten. Nor are Lucia, Bennet, Tryg, Lincoln and Cadence. Their lives are continued through Sylas and Ivy, and through the unyielding maternal love that every mother radiates onto her children. We love you, Bri.

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  9. "As surely as you are God"
    I like that part.

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  10. I've been checking on your blog everyday. Wanting to see you're doing alright. Your children are so beautiful. I hope you find some peace in God's love. You have a beautiful beautiful family here on earth, and waiting for you in heaven.

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  11. Look at those smiles!

    Beautiful pictures and beautiful children :)

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  12. This is beautiful, Bri. I hope the weight stays lifted and hope fills in where the weight left.

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  13. Hope your hanging in there and the sun is start to shine a little. Without the bad days, we would not know or appreciate the good days.

    Thinking about you and sending you warm wishes from Dallas...

    Krista

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