Three years ago, today, sweet Bennet. I held you for the first time and the last time [on this earth].
And though today was spent cuddling and loving and doctoring your two under the weather siblings, there was still so much capacity in my heart for loving you. For missing you.
In some strange, totally makes sense way, I wish you were sharing in their summer cold. I want to wipe your nose and give you nebulizer treatments and snuggle your feverish body on the couch. I am, and will always be your mom, but I miss being your mom. I miss you.
I love you, my first born boy. And I will always miss you....
Until I see you.