Thursday, May 27, 2010


He is an old soul in a body the size of an 18 month old. It shocks people when he opens his mouth and has a full-on conversation.

He is affectionate, stopping throughout the day to say, I love you, mommy...or daddy...or baby.

He is quick to ask a person, How ya doin? and in his eyes one can see that he really wants to know.

His smile is SUNSHINE and his tears break my heart.

He is strong and fragile...but mostly strong.

We've been having evaluations and meetings and school visits and more evaluations to see if he qualifies for early education next year. It's borderline as most of the children who qualify have significant speech and cognitive delays, and that's not him. His therapist told me she feels like she is talking to a five year old during therapy. If he qualifies, it will be for other delays...gross motor, fine motor, self-help...

I'm holding this whole school thing with a loose grasp. I'm terrified to let him go, but if it's the best thing for him, I'll conquer that fear.

He is almost 3. He is my fifth born, yet my first born. My baby, yet my oldest.

And every day, my heart is thankful.


  1. Brianna, this is such an awesome post. Your words are so beautiful and Sylas looks like such an amazing son. Sherri

  2. that made me cry..... your family is an inspiration .... prayers to you all

  3. sweet. What a wonderful little boy you have. I worked in early childhood and then in a building with kids receiving early childhood services, it is amazing the things they learn to do when they get an early start, so much progress can be made in the right environment. That being said, I don't wanna let my 5 1/2 year-old go to kindergarten next's hard to let go. Especially for you at his age! Such cute photos, I love his glasses.

  4. What a precious little man you have been blessed with! When can we get together and soak up some of his joy? ;)

  5. What a great post! I love it and I am thinking about you a lot these days...with birthdays coming up, I know it must be so hard for you. I remember seeing in the the tunnel like it was yesterday.

    Blessings today!

  6. He is such an amazing little man! Such a miracle with SO much potential! He is going to be the president one day, I think!

  7. What a sweet spirit that boy has! I love your stories about him - they show his heart of gold.

  8. This is a precious post. You are blessed indeed -- and you're sharing your blessings with other moms. So sweet.

  9. Oh, how I love this post! You've been able to put into words what so many of us who have children with other abilities feels. Thank you.

  10. I relate to your posts and find encouragement that someone else has been in a similar position. We had quints in 2005 at 27 weeks 6 days. We lost 2 boys, they were born first and second. Thanks for your blog.

  11. what a heart-warming and sweet post about your precious sy!
    he sure gets cuter and cuter! please post another video of his laugh, it is the best sound ever! and it cracks me up!


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