Sunday, July 26, 2009

Something to Look Forward To

About an hour ago, I was sitting on a chair, rocking Ivy and feeling bored. Sometimes the day to day brings such drudgery to my spirit. I love my husband, I love my kids, we're in a good situation, and my husband has a job that provides for our family. So what's the problem?

As I was sitting there, watching Ryan get ready to go to church and thinking about putting the kids to bed by myself, I flippantly said, "I need something to look forward to." Being a good pastor, he responded with, "Heaven."

Ok. This really ruffled my feathers. I wanted something in the here and now. Something I knew was coming soon. Something I could really look forward to.

But wait.

Shouldn't Heaven be what I look forward to most? When I'm away from my children, I long to see their faces, when I'm away from my husband, I long for his embrace. How much more should I long to see Jesus, my first love, face to face?

To gaze upon Him in all of His beauty and majesty.

Now that is something to look forward to.

8 comments:

  1. I often feel the same way! I try to focus on what I do have everyday already. I really enjoy your blog, thanks for writing!

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  2. Brianna,
    It's been a long time since I wrote (emailed you back when you were on bedrest!), so I thought this would be a good time to speak up again.
    No great words of wisdom, but I'm familiar with what you had been feeling. I just kept reminding myself of the time my husband and I were sent to Cincinnati for a procedure to be done to help the identicals in our set of triplets. I looked out the window of our hotel and over at the office building below and thought that I would give anything to be having an ordinary day. I was terrified at the time and wished that I was just bored out of my mind at work in cube-city. After a hard six months I came to realize what a gift an ordinary day was. I treasure them.
    I DO also look forward to the day my two little girls come running to me at heavens gate with open arms!! :)
    I still think of you often and my prayers are still with you and your family.
    God bless.

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  3. Thanks for sharing your heart Brianna ... I am amazed at how bored I can feel having a 13-month old and being pregnant - it is just the same thing over and over:) And then I feel guilty because this is what I have ALWAYS longed for - to be a mother!! And like you - I miss my baby if I am away for just a short time - it reminds me how much God must miss me when I am gone even for a short time.
    Anyway, sorry to babble. If you want to do something really exciting - lets schedule something soon for you and Ryan and the kiddos to come to our 'boring' (childproof) home:)

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  4. You have no idea how much I feel the same way Girl......

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  5. Oh so true! Thanks for the reminder, Brianna!

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  6. Oh, how your words ring the bell of truth in my heart! It is sad to say but I really needed that reminder. Thanks for the loving, pastor's heart of Ryan for saying them and for your ministering heart for sharing them. Yes, yes, that is what we should all be looking forward to. Thanks for ruffling our feathers!

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