Monday, April 27, 2009

Frozen (Updated)

UPDATE:

As I continue to write our story, I'm realizing it's too long and too difficult for it all to be one post. I'm going to post "Part 1" soon and continue posting our story as I am able. Thank you to all who left such kind and encouraging comments. I feel so "lifted up."

ORIGINAL POST:

Hi Friends. I know that many of you have followed our story and have been praying for us since the beginning. At the same time, there are those of you who are new to the blog and really have no idea who we are. For you (and for myself) I'm putting together a post that tells our story from the beginning.

I didn't think it would be so difficult.

I sit at the keyboard and my hands seem frozen in grief. It's not that I haven't thought about moments from the past 2 plus year, but thinking about everything that happened in such detail is tough. I still have so many moments of "what if" and so many days when I feel guilty and as though I didn't do enough for my babies. I really want to write this story. I think it's an important part of healing and moving forward, but sometimes it's easier to be stagnant.

10 comments:

  1. Thinking of you, Brianna. I know the "what ifs" and feeling like you could have done more. I lost my twins, Devin and Elizabeth, at 22 weeks. You've probably read part of my story before through some posts I have made. 5 years and 3 children later, I still wonder if I could have done something different. I wonder what they would be like today. I wonder how my life would be different if things had turned out differently.

    Know that you are a wonderful mother - to ALL of your children. And you did all that you could. Trust that.

    It's so hard to look back and move through the grief, all while being so thankful for your blessings today. I understand. My broken mother's heart is hurting with you. And praying for you as you write your story.

    I, too, have felt more of a need to tell our whole story, to remember my babies and continue to move through this journey of grief.

    Hugs and prayers for you.

    Here is some of my story...http://threedayboys.blogspot.com/2009/01/never-forgotten_15.html

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  2. It would be a privileged to pray for you! =)

    In His Faithfulness and Grace,
    Jen Murray

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  3. I've never commented on your blog before, I've been a silent "lurker". I first heard about your story when you were pregnant with the sextuplets, and I've been following since then. I just want you to know that I think you are an incredibly strong woman and wonderfully loving mother. I'm praying for you as you continue to work through your grief.

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  4. Your story has spoken to me and helped me return to my faith since I saw you during your pregancy with the sextuplets. Your faith and trust in God spoke to me on so many levels and its great to see how he is still using you today. Its hard to understand why God chose you and chose the way to use you that he did and continues to, but I do know that your family's faith has been an inspiration and has carried Jesus' message to many that may not have otherwise been able or willing to hear it.
    I hope you are able to finish writing the story soon.

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  5. As I watched the pictures and heard your story unfold through Noemi, I realized how hard it was for you both. I cried with each loss and rejoiced that Sy lived. I would love to hear the story, but I know it must be very difficult to relive those horrible times. One thing I do know - you did everything you could. You wouldn't have done anything else.

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  6. Your story has touched so many -- your babies' lives matter. Each of them has left an imprint on the souls of many. I believe one way to measure the value of a life is the positive impact made on others. By that yardstick, your babies each led life full of value and purpose. Thank you for sharing them. You're an amazingly strong woman and I greatly admire your strength and faith.

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  7. I'm sorry Brianna. We are all here when you are ready, and will still be here even if it takes a while.

    Loves to you and your family!

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  8. Brianna, thank you so much for your incredible courage to want to tell us your story. I have heard bits and pieces of it through the past years and mutual friends of ours. I loved being a part of the 'Morrison 6 Committee' when you and Ryan were excitedly awaiting the arrival of your 6 little ones. I remember hearing the news in the early morning that they were born and what each one of their stats were. How incredible...and I can't understand your pain. All I hear from you is courage, strength and faithfulness in our Father. You are incredibly strong, hand-picked to be Lucia, Bennet, Tryg, Lincoln, Cadence, Sylas and Ivy's mom. Your heart is full. The way you glorify God through your experiences are so telling of who He created you to be. Thank you, again, for your willingness to speak and to grief publicly. Take your time - this journey is a slow one, taking each step little by little.

    Praying for you, sweet Sister in Christ.

    Love,
    Jacquelyn

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  9. I know it is difficult to write your story (I have followed from the day the babies were born) but I think you will benefit from sharing it with others and maybe even be able to release some of the grief. Those of us that have known you from your blogs - know what a beautiful person you are and even though we may be 100s of miles away - we are here to lift you up and support you.

    Love from Dallas.

    KS

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