Monday, March 16, 2009


We had our first official "playdate" today and it was so much fun! Two of my friends from church came over with their darling baby girls. The three babies were adorable together, punching each other in the face and trying to suck on each other's hands. I'm happy Ivy is going to have such sweet little friends to grow up with. From left to right we have Hannah, born December 8, Sitora, born January 17 and little Ives, born January 5.

It seems as though we are slowly starting to settle into our new lives. Ryan is getting into the swing of things at the church and I'm adjusting more to having two "babies" at home. I know that according to his age, Sylas is more of a toddler, but if so, he's a toddler who doesn't toddle, which makes things more challenging. We have our good days and our bad. Lately, I've been meditating on Psalm 23 and have struggled with verse 2, wondering why I'm not being led by quiet waters or allowed to lie down in green pastures. I'm usually exhausted and cranky and just a few days ago told Ryan that I wished I could go hunting just so I could sit in a tree stand and watch and wait. Let me tell you, this was desperation speaking. Even though I grew up in Wisconsin, I've most definitely never had the desire to hunt. No thank you!

I digress.

Today as I was sitting in the rocking chair with Ivy, I begged the Lord to make green pastures for me amidst the busyness. I know that life with two small children is going to be crazy, but in spite of the chaos, I want to be a person who is peaceful and one who delights in whatever season I find myself. So, I'm embracing my spit-up stained, showerless existence and holding on for dear life to the hand of Jesus, my Shepherd, my Pasture Maker. I don't want to miss a moment.


  1. Ivy's "friends" are precious and so is she. I know 2 young ones can be tiresome. Don't be too hard on yourself. Every mom goes through rough patches. It'll get better soon. Hang in there.

  2. When my little 23-weeker turned two and still wasn't walking, his pediatrician called him a "bobbler," rather than toddler...

  3. Thanks for the post. First off the babies....gorgeous (and the mommys too of course.

    Secondly, thank you for reminding me to embrace the season we are in. Sometimes the days are long and yes, I WANT A SHOWER TOO. But, we do serve a good God and what we have NOW is GOOD so please God help me to embrace it also!!!

  4. I know it gets difficult - especially with two little ones at home, but I can assure you of 2 things.

    1. It will get better. Of course, there will be other issues that will drive you crazy by then, but that is a whole other story.

    2. You will blink and 10 years will be gone and you will wish for these times back.

    My daughter is 13 and I can't tell you where the time went. She is a great kid, so I am lucky there, but at the same time - I sure miss those days when she was little.

    I was talking to my dad just the other day about the times my daughter drove me crazy when she was little. They are just fond memories now.

    Don't worry about showering - there will always be time for that. A little hint - fill the tub - put on a swim suit and a climb in with the kids. You might not get your hair washed but you'll have fun and feel refreshed afterward.

    Not to go into too much biblical verse or stir anything up - but after the things that have happened in the past - maybe these are your green pastures and quiet waters. You have had your share of heartache and maybe now it is time to just stroll for a while...

    Sorry for the long comment!


  5. I totally agree with this post. Life is crazy with 2 little ones...the girls are keeping me busy and I am not feeling at peace most days. Thanks for being honest.

    It looks like you had a great playdate, which makes for a great day in this house.

    I am glad to hear things are going well in WI and you are starting to settle in.

    I know the days will get better for all of us moms...hang in there!


  6. blessings to you as you deal with the exhaustion! May God bring you to some still waters (or at least the waters of a daily shower!) soon. With the busyness of life with 2 1/2 year old twins, I definitely get cranky if I don't get my 10 minutes of peace each day in the shower.

  7. Hi Brianna,

    I finally have figured out this blog thing. Truly a generation gap:-) It's great seeing photos of you and the kids and getting the updates. Sorry you've had some challenges. We're praying for you. We really look forward to seeing you next week. Please greet Ryan and your family for us.


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