Thursday, December 31, 2009

Peace (A Giveaway)

It's almost 2010. What are we going to call the next decade? The tens? The teens?

I'm not one to make New Year's resolutions. Maybe because every time I've tried, I've failed.

But this year feels different.

This year, I'm resolving to be more peaceful. So often I'm stressed out and in a hurry. It doesn't take much to put me over the edge. I don't think I've always been like this and I'm not liking it. I really want to be a more peaceful person. Enjoying life in the moment and not trying to rush things along.

I'm going to spend the year meditating on Philippians 4:4-9. So much of this passage of the Bible speaks to me. I want to have a gentle spirit. I want to be anxious for nothing. I want to think about things that are true, pure and lovely. And oh, to have the peace of God that surpasses all understanding.

Peace, peace, beautiful peace. I crave it.

In the spirit of having a peaceful 2010, my last giveaway is Aveda Blue Oil Balancing Concentrate. I love this stuff. A little on the temples, a little on the back of the neck and I'm feeling better by the minute.

To enter this giveaway, let me know if you have a resolution for 2010.

{All this week, I'm giving away a few of my favorite things. Be sure to enter my other giveaways here. I'll pick and announce the winners on New Years Day}.

THIS GIVEAWAY IS CLOSED.

Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Where In The World Are You? (A Giveaway)

So, you know how I love headbands? Unfortunately, I was about to go broke wanting to buy a matching headband for every outfit Ivy owns. Not good.

To satisfy this desire and not break the bank, I started making headbands myself. And WOWWOWWOW. It's so fun.

My favorite creations are the bands with one large flower and a pearl in the center.

Like the one Ivy is wearing in this photo.

Do you want one? I'd loooove to make one for you. Just leave a comment telling me what state/country you live in, and if you win, we'll coordinate colors for a very own custom headband made by yours truly.

{All this week, I'm giving away a few of my favorite things. Be sure to enter my other giveaways here. I'll pick and announce the winners on New Years Day}.


THIS GIVEAWAY IS CLOSED.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009

A Bit Awkward (a Giveaway)

Do you remember my obsession with these earrings?


It hasn't lessened, and I'm dying to give away another pair of these delightful buds. Just leave a comment telling me some obscure fact about yourself, and you could win a pair of pink rosebuds.

I'll go first.

I have a hard time pointing my toes.

When I took gymnastics as a young girl, I was always getting scolded, because every time I was supposed to point my toes, BOTH big toes would stick straight up in the air. Awkward.

Ok, I'm so glad you know that about me. Now we're really friends.

{All this week I'm giving away a few of my favorite things. Be sure to enter my other giveaways here. I'll pick and announce the winners on New Years day}.

UPDATE:

If you don't win, and you need these earrings, you can find similar ones here.

THIS GIVEAWAY IS CLOSED.

Nearly a Year

I've had almost a full year of this girl.

And I can't get enough of her.

Ivy Pearl turns 1 a week from today!

Monday, December 28, 2009

Tradition (A Giveaway)

One of my favorite Christmas traditions is eating Belgian waffles topped with berries and real whipped cream on Christmas morning. The crisp waffle, the tart raspberries and the sweet heavy cream carry me away to a state of elated bliss.

Sigh.

Do you have a favorite holiday tradition? Let me know what it is and you could win this pair of BabyLegs.


{For the next 4 days, I'll be giving away a few of my favorite things to help ring in the new decade. Please feel free to enter one or all of the giveaways. I'll pick the winners and announce them here on New Years Day}.

THIS GIVEAWAY IS CLOSED.

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Where I Go

I have 35 minutes. Ryan just strapped the kids in the Pilot and went to Starbucks to buy more espresso pods. It should be enough time to say Hello to you, respond to some emails and catch up on some blog reading. When I have a few minutes, here's where I go:


.........

I can't believe Christmas has come and gone. Friends, it's almost 2010! Stay tuned for some sweet giveaways to ring in the new decade.

Happy Sunday.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Can't Catch Me

Ivy took her first step on Sunday afternoon. By Sunday evening, she was taking 6-7 steps at a time. When I got her up Monday morning, I wondered if she was going to run.

Seven steps is still the most she's taken. But she's getting more and more confident. What a beautiful Christmas present.

I Love This Together Thing

I am deeply honored that so many of you have allowed me to share in your grief and to remember with you. I am praying that the Lord will be very near during this Holiday Season.

Thank you for all of your love and prayers as Ryan and I continue to grieve the loss of Lucia, Bennet, Tryg, Lincoln and Cadence. You have blessed our family more than you know.

I wish we could all get together.

Sunday, December 20, 2009

Remembering Together

I've been remembering my babies a lot this Holiday Season. Grieving their loss. Trying to imagine how crazy our household would be with seven children {six of them the same age}. It makes me smile. It makes me sad.

For those who have lost a loved one, the Holidays are a tightly woven tapestry of joy, pain, celebration and grief. One part can't be separated from another. Many are remembering what was and others, like me, are picturing what could have been. Memories that were yet to be made.

As time passes between death and the present, grieving gets lonelier. Life continues. The world keeps revolving. But for the one who has experienced loss, though the grief may ebb and flow, they always remember.

And oh, the beauty of remembering with others. Letting them know, that you haven't forgotten. That the life of their loved one mattered.

I know this season is busy, but do you know someone who could use encouragement? Maybe a card or a quick phone call.

Perhaps you are the one who needs to be lifted up. If so, please feel free to leave the name of the person{s} you are remembering this season. I would be honored to remember them with you and to pray that as you grieve, your grief would not be without hope.

Love you all.

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Thursday, December 17, 2009

Jolly Old St. Nicholas

We recently attended a Christmas party for the Birth to 3 program. Sylas receive both physical and occupational therapy through Birth to 3.

Sy loves his therapists. Here he is with his occupational therapist, Mary Ann.


And his physical therapist, Heather.


As an added bonus, Santa and Mrs. Claus were at the party!!! This was Sy's first time sitting on Santa's lap and he was completely enamored.

Look at how GIGANTIC Santa's hands are! And his belt buckle is bigger than Ivy's head!

Sy couldn't take his eyes off of Jolly Old St. Nick.

This next phots is the only one we got of Sy {somewhat} looking at the camera. I love Mrs. Claus' face!

Ryan and I just started discussing how we're going to deal with the whole Santa issue. Of course our main focus during Christmas will always be on the birth of Jesus, but we don't have a problem with our children pretending that Santa is real. So much fairytale and imagination is being lost in our high tech, video game culture. And as our kids get older, we want to share the history of St. Nicholas. But when the time comes that they ask us point blank, "Is Santa real?," we will tell them the truth.

Do YOUR children believe in Santa?

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Waiting

My thoughts are muddled. Maybe because it sounds like there's a swarm of bees buzzing in my head. I'm a contradiction of emotions these days. My fuse is short. I find myself snapping at the children and then immediately wondering where it came from and not liking who I am in that moment.

Sylas is transitioning to one nap. Ivy is no longer sleeping well at night. And I miss my babies. My babies who, if they lived, wouldn't be babies anymore.

One minute I feel like pulling my hair out and the next I want to scoop Sy and Ivy into my arms and never let them grow up. I'm so thankful for my life, but I'm walking through it as a broken woman.

During this time of Advent, I'm waiting expectantly. Waiting for Jesus to come. Needing the Messiah more than ever. Knowing that He is the only One who can make things right.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

11 Months (and 3 days)

She's so lovely she takes my breath away.


Her 1 year birthday is just around the corner.


I'm not sure if I'm ready.


But ready or not.


Here it comes!

Monday, December 7, 2009

So Tall

I stayed in the nursery with my children yesterday. Sy has been getting very sad when I leave him, so it's less stressful for both of us if we're together. Mostly, I sit on the floor and play with Ivy, while Sylas does his own thing. He doesn't need me to play with him. He just needs to know that I'm there.

I was sitting by the foamy squishy bridge thingy when an adorable little girl walked up the steps of the bridge. She stood right in the middle with her arms stretched to the sky. I applauded her and exclaimed, "Look at you! You're so TALL!"

From across the room, Sy must have been listening, because not a minute later, he was there. Struggling to get up on top of the bridge. And when he does, firmly planting his hands, getting his feet up under him and shooting his tiny bum up in the air (picture downward dog with less flexibility), yelling, "SO TALL, MAMA!"

Trying to hide my tears, I exclaim, "You are so tall, Bug. You're very, very tall."

And he is. Even though he's small for his age, from a medical standpoint he shouldn't have survived. He's taller than anybody ever thought he would be. And he may not be able to stand up on his own yet, but he's doing much more than anybody ever thought he would do.

He's our big tall miracle, and I'm so very proud.


Sunday, December 6, 2009

Some Business Items

Congrats Mama K! You are the winner of a 45/90 load bag of Rockin Green soap. Email me! The rest of you don't forget to use the code RockinHoliday to get 10% off your entire order at Rockin Green.

For The Nanny and The Dolezal Family, here's the recipe for the hearty and oh so tasty 3 Bean Vegetarian Chili I mentioned in my last post.

Three Bean Vegetarian Chili (yields 8-10 servings)

1 can white kidney beans (cannellini), drained
1 can red kidney beans, drained
1 can black beans, drained
1 and 1/2 tablespoons of olive oil
1 large onion, chopped
1 and 1/2 stalks of celery, chopped
4 carrots, chopped
1 bell pepper (any color you have on hand), chopped
4 garlic cloves, minced
1-2 jalapeno peppers, minced
3 teaspoons ground cumin
3/4 teaspoon ground coriander
1/4 teaspoon ground cinnamon
1/4 teaspoon ground red pepper (cayenne)
1 can (28 oz) whole tomatoes (including juices)
1 can (14.5 oz) diced tomatoes (including juices)
2 teaspoons salt
1/2 teaspoon dried oregano
3 cups water
8-10 oz frozen whole-kernel corn
1-2 tablespoons fresh cilantro

1. In dutch oven or large pot, heat oil over medium heat. Add onions, carrots, celery and red pepper. Cook, stirring frequently, until carrots are tender, about 10 minutes. Stir in garlic, jalapeno, cumin, coriander, cinnamon and ground red pepper; cook 1 minute. Stir in tomatoes with their juices, salt and oregano, breaking up tomatoes with side of spoon. Heat to boiling; reduce heat and simmer 10 minutes, stirring several times.

2. Add beans and water to Dutch oven. Heat to boiling over medium-high heat. Reduce heat; cover and simmer, stirring occasionally, 15 minutes. Stir in corn and cook 5 minutes longer. Remove from heat and stir in cilantro.

Serve with crispy bread and you got yourself a meal!

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Real Life

There is something so cozy about a warm house, a hot kettle of soup and cooking in the kitchen with your father.

Tomorrow the church is having a chili dinner after the morning service. We're raising money to help families in the community who are unable to afford gifts for their children this year. I made two GIGANTIC pots of my 3 bean vegetarian chili.



It calls for a lot of beans.


Tomorrow evening, the children from the church are putting on their annual Christmas pageant. A cookie reception will immediately follow the production. Sylas will be extremely excited about this. He's so into COOOO-KIES lately. My dad made sugar and molasses cookies. Delish!



In other news, Ivy Pearl is 11 months old today. The photos we took of her didn't turn out, so amidst the pageants, chili and cookie eating, I'll have Ryan try to snap a few tomorrow.

Don't forget to enter the Rockin Green Soap giveaway posted here. The contest will close at 11:59 p.m. CST tonight!!!

Sweet Dreams.

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Rockin Green (a Giveaway)

I've now been cloth diapering for about five months months and I still love it! We use disposables in a pinch (or when I'm lazy), but I love the feeling I get when I go through a whole day only using cloth. Maybe I need a life if that's what gives me a rush.

Hmmm...

Anyway, like I said, I love it, but there have been a few bumps along the road. Our main obstacle has been washing the stinky critters. We have hard water and a high efficiency washing machine, which is a double death for diapers. I tried EVERYTHING and still, as soon as urine hit those puppies, the stench of ammonia was enough to knock your socks off. Frustrating! I've been talking it over with a dear friend and she mentioned she was going to order a sample of a soap called Rockin Green that was getting rave reviews. I took a look at the website and it was like Kim, the owner of Rockin Green was talking to me. Right at the top of the homepage it reads:

"Are you sick and tired of battling with stinky diapers?"

YES.YES.YES. was my answer, so I ordered a sample. And I'm in love. With a soap. After a 1 hour soak and a wash, my diapers smelled like glorious nothing. Ah-mazing.

Do you have stinky diapers? Do you need this soap? Well, you're in luck.

Kim from Rockin Green (she's seriously great) has offered to give away a 45/90 load bag in the scent of choice to one of YOU! I've tried the cherry almond and it smelled so yummy I wanted to eat it, but I didn't. I'm now waiting for the 2 bags of peppermint cocoa I got for a steal on black Friday. I'm not sure if I want to try the Lavender Vanilla or Mango Sorbet the next time. They all sound so divine. Sigh...

Oh. Sorry. Back to the giveaway. You have two chances to enter, so be sure to leave a separate comment for each entry.

1. Go to Rockin Green's website, then come back here and tell me what scent your dying to try.

2. Follow me on Twitter and tweet:

RT @brimo I want to rock the soak. http://bit.ly/7Py6tK Rockin Green soap giveaway.

Then leave another comment on this post letting me know you tweeted.

Even if you don't cloth diaper, please feel free to enter. This soap can be used for a plethora of other stinky things. I just did a load of kitchen wash clothes that smelled of mold as soon as water touched them and of course, Rockin Green did it's magic. I may start calling this stuff stinky-be-gone.

I'll choose a winner via random.org sometime after 11:59 p.m. on Saturday, December 5. And not to worry. If you don't win, Kim is offering 10% off of everything in her shop. Just use the code RockinHoliday.

Sorry my international friends, but due to shipping costs, this giveaway is only open to U.S. residents.

This contest is now closed!!!

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Monday, November 30, 2009

This Could Change Everything

Up until two nights ago, Ryan and I haven't had a full nights sleep in over two years. Sylas didn't start sleeping through the night until Ivy was a month and a half old. And Ivy. Oh, my darling Ivy, we're lucky if she sleeps at least 4 hours straight.

But two nights ago...

shh...(I have to whisper type this, so Ivy won't hear and I jinx the new normal).

Ivy slept 8 hours straight. Then, last night, 11 hours straight.

This really could change my life.

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

My Dilemna

I have this problem. I need to pack, but...

I can't pack if my surroundings aren't clean.

And I can't clean if all my children want to do is be held.

And if all my children want to do is be held, I can't pack.

So, in the spirit of the season, today I'm thankful for The Fresh Beat Band.

I'm off to pack. I mean clean. Or something.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Direction

My heart feels heavy. I've been trying to write Part 2 of our story for months. I just wrote another sentence and that's all I could write. I feel sad, but mostly, I feel...

Direction-less.


Why did this happen to us? What was the point? To be sure, I'm not the same person and hopefully that's a good thing. But I have to believe there's another purpose. Is there something else I should be doing? Where do I go from here?

I feel so direction-less.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Like a Sponge

He's growing up right before my eyes.

He's like a sponge, this boy.


The other day, I heard him sing, clear as a bell,

Twinkle twinkle yittle star...

And then last night,

He yuvs us, oh how He yuvs us.

You are right my little man. God loves us so.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

We Interrupt This Programming

For a brief word from Sylas Christopher.

And a guest appearance of the smiling nudie baby.


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Friday, November 6, 2009

What's in a Name? (Part 2)

Do you remember this post? The one is which I shared the naming of Ivy Pearl?

Some of you asked if I would share how we decided upon the names for the sextuplets, and I'm finally getting around to it. Part of the delay has been lack of time, but it's mostly that I've had to work up the courage. You see, I adore all of their names, and I'm brokenhearted over the fact that I don't get to use them as a part of everyday life. I can't say to Lucia, "Mommy loves you," or to Tryg, "Please be careful by the stairs."

Still...

Because I love their names, it would be my pleasure to share the significance behind them.

Our lovely first born, Lucia Rae had her name long before the others. Before I was even pregnant, I wanted to name our first girl Luciana (pronounce lu-she-ah-na), and call her Lucia (lu-sha). I lived in Italy during my junior year of college and loved the idea of giving our daughter an Italian name. Also, the meaning of Luciana is "graceful illumination." Isn't that lovely? However, when we started naming the babies, they were all getting 1-2 syllable names, and a name with four syllables didn't seem to fit, so we decided to just name Baby A, Lucia, which means "light." Lucia's middle name, Rae, is in honor of my mother's whose middle name is also Rae.

Bennet Ryan, our first born boy, was given his name last! It was Memorial Day, a few weeks before the babies were born and I started having a panic attack and was so worried that I would have the babies and one of the boys wouldn't have a name. Ryan told me not to worry and that afternoon while I took a nap, he scoured baby name sites for the perfect name. When I awoke from my nap, the first thing he said to me was, "Bennet." I loved it from the start. It means "little blessed one," and it seemed only fitting that Bennet would receive his daddy's name as his middle name. From then on, Baby B was Bennet Ryan.

Like Lucia's name, we also had the name Tryg before I was pregnant. It's a Scandinavian name, meaning "true." Ryan and I both love how strong and manly it sounds and it was also special because I come from a Scandinavian heritage. For this reason, we gave Tryg my dad's name as his middle name. Baby C, Tryg Brenton.

Now for little Lincoln Sean. The first time I heard the name Lincoln, was on the show, Prison Break. I mentioned it to Ryan and he loved it, so that was that. It wasn't until he was born that we learned one of the meanings of his name is, "by the sea." It made me think that he would have been a deep thinker, contemplating the things of God. Linc was given Ryan's father's name as his middle name, so Baby D was Lincoln Sean.

And Sylas, our sweet Baby E. His name came to me during one of the few times I was allowed outside during my 7 week hospital stay. Ryan was wheeling me around and it's almost as though the name Sylas was whispered to my spirit. Ryan liked it immediately, but his only stipulation was that we spell it with a "y" instead of an "i." His reasoning was that if Sylas wanted to sign his name "Sy," he didn't want people thinking that his name was "yes" in Spanish. Makes sense. No problem. Sylas was given Ryan's brother's name, Christopher, as his middle name. Christopher has been distant from the family for quite some time and it has been our prayer that God will use Sylas to bring restoration not only to the Morrison family, but to many families around him.

And Cadence Alana, our teeny tiny, darling little girl. I first heard the name Cadence while working at Starbucks. One of our customers had a baby named Cadence. When I first brought the name up with Ryan, he didn't really like it because it's a musical term and being a musician, it was too strange for him. However, it didn't take long for him to love the name because it was a musical term. Cadence means "rhythm" or according to some references "melody." It suited our darling Baby F, because right from the beginning this girl was a dancer. Every ultra sound, she was going crazy, flipping this way and that. I loved it. Cadence was given the name Alana for her middle name, which is also my mother-in-laws middle name. It means "beautiful." Oh, and she was our beautiful melody.

If you didn't leave a comment on the last naming post or even if you did and you want to do it again, I'd love to hear the significance behind your name or your children's names.

Thanks for listening. It really does make me happy to talk about my babies.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

Ten Months

Ten months of girlie.

Dainty.

Feminine.


Topped with a heaping scoop of attitude.

Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Oh, My Sweet Wednesday

Wednesday is my new favorite day. It used to be my worst day, with Ryan getting home from work at 5 p.m. and having to go back an hour later for Awana kids club.

Now. Oh, my sweet Wednesday, how I love thee.

Ryan started taking Wednesday afternoons off. He is at the church every Monday and Wednesday evening, which earns him so comp time. It's lovely.

And..

A little over a month ago, one of my mom's best friends offered to help me with the kids for 2 hours every Wednesday morning. Two whole hours in which I'm free to do whatever I please. Sometimes I run errands, sometimes I stay home and clean, sometimes I blog, and sometimes I blog while running errands. Like today. I'm blogging on my phone while waiting to get my oil changed. It's pure bliss not to have the kids with me in this tiny little room that reeks of oil.

Wednesdays are kind of like a vacation.

Sunday, November 1, 2009

It was Perfect

Our house has been all a flutter this week. My beautiful, kind-hearted, baby sister got married on Friday evening. Courtney was the most glorious bride and I was delighted to be her matron of honor.

The whole day was perfect.

Now.

The hustle and bustle is over and the two have become one. I'm so happy.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

One Little Piece

Ryan and I like things organized. Closets, drawers, binders, files, CDs, DVDs, anything and everything, organized. You should have seen our apartment before we had children. Everything labeled, everything tidy. It was beautiful.

And boring.

Now our lives are anything but organized. Clothes are hastily thrown in drawers, if they're put away at all. Bills, papers and receipts are stacked in piles on my desk, I don't know where I put half of my CDs. And binders? Who has time for binders?

Our space is still beautiful, just in a different way. And it's absolutely not boring.

Still...

There are days when I long for order, even just a little. So, I did this.


It's my own little piece of sanity. Isn't it lovely?

Monday, October 19, 2009

Now for the Winner

I never want to be the first to comment on a giveaway post. I will actually wait to enter just so I'm not the first, because when does the first commenter ever win?

Never, right?

Wrong.

Congratulations sara., random.org picked you. I would love to send you some yellow rosebud earrings. Send me an email when you get a chance. Oooh, I know you're going to love them.

Thanks to everyone who played. I think I might have to give away another pair of rosebuds very soon.

Saturday, October 17, 2009

A Little Get to Know You and a Giveaway

I have a confession to make.

I'm obsessed with rosebud earrings. I recently found them at a local boutique and I just cannot get enough. I already have them in four different colors and don't see myself stopping anytime soon.

You can see me wearing them here.



There.



And everywhere.

I really, really love them. I love them so much that I think you need them too!

Just leave a comment telling me what you're obsessed with, and you could win yourself a pair of yellow rosebud earrings. Then we can match and it will be fun.

I'll choose a winner via random.org sometime Monday night, so get confessing.*

*only one confession per person please.

Friday, October 16, 2009

State of the Children

I'm thinking it's time for a long overdue update on my children. So here we go.

I can tell that the weather has changed since Sy's horrible cough is back with a vengeance. He had a few minor colds over the summer, but they only lasted a few days and never included his nasty old man cough. He's now been sick for 7 days and he's still a coughing fiend. Ugh. So it begins.

He's seeing a physical therapist once a week, and she's very happy with the progress he's made. While wearing his orthotics, he can stand unassisted for about 5 seconds at a time, and he's getting better with his walker, though his preferred mode of transportation is still crawling. That boy can put holes in the knees of his pants after wearing them only 2 or 3 times!!! I need to start buying his jeans at a store that will give you a new pair in the same size if they get holes before the child outgrows them. Anyone know of a place that does that?

An occupational therapist also comes to the home once a week and works with Sy on his fine motor development. About six months ago he had the fine motor skills of a ten month old (12 months behind). His therapist seems to think that his delay has been due to his significant vision deficit, and since getting his new glasses, his fine motor skills have improved rapidly.

What Sylas lacks physically, he more than makes up for it intellectually. He can recognize many number and letters, he knows the words to numerous songs and books, he's putting 3 words sentences together, and is starting to follow more complex instructions. Ryan and I are so excited about this, because there was a time when he was very small that we wondered if he would have the mental capabilities to live on his own or be able to hold a job. We now have no doubt that he is going to succeed in whatever he sets out to do.

Oh, yeah, and did I mention he's funny. Really, really funny.

And he loves tractors. A whole lot.

Did you notice the dirt ALL OVER HIS FACE?

Now for little miss Ivy. She is growing right before our eyes. At nine months, she sits, crawls, pulls to stand, stands unassisted for a couple seconds and cruises around furniture. She has a temper and SCREAMS.HER.HEAD.OFF every time her brother takes a toy from her, which is at least 50 times a day.

She is a mama's girl through and through, and loves to be held by me, rocked by me and fed by me. "Mama" is the only word she is saying, though on occasion it has sounded like she's said "Hi." She loves mamas milk and plain yogurt, but won't eat much of anything else. She has her two bottom middle teeth, and one incisor on the top. Weird, I know.

Ivy really is a delightful child who makes our hearts happy every day.

Plus she has a huge, silly grin that is so endearing.


Anything else you want to know? Ask me in the comments and I'll do a follow-up update post.

Monday, October 5, 2009

And Everything Nice

Happy nine months of life, Miss Ivy Pearl.

You are lots of sugar.


And even more spice.

Clean Up on Aisle Seven

It appears that someone has verbally vomited.

And boy do I feel better.

Thanks for listening. Caring. Loving. Encouraging. My circumstances haven't changed. I still need to fold that same load of laundry. But my perspective has changed. I'm seeing things a bit more clearly and the world seems just a little brighter.

I know a lot of my mood has been an attack from the enemy, the great deceiver, the one whose goal is to destroy mankind. Why is it that my feelings always get in the way of Truth? Oh, that my eyes would be focused on the One who gives grace upon grace for each day, each moment.

"For of His fullness we have all received, and grace upon grace." John 1:16

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Not a Pretty Post

I'm tired and crabby and life is just plain hard right now. There's so much to be done and not enough hours in the day. If I spend too much time playing and caring for my children then my house is a mess, which makes me feel like I'm going crazy, and if I spend too much time making sure my living space is clean and organized, then I feel guilty for not spending enough time with my kids. On top of all that, is the time I need to spend working with Sylas on his walking. Not one day have I felt like I've worked with him enough, which in turn makes me feel like his not walking is my fault.

I'm tired. Really tired.

Monday, September 28, 2009

We Do What We Want

Our mama has a lot to do.

But all she wants to do is hold me.

And play with me.

Do YOU think that's a problem?

Cuz we don't.

Sincerely,
Bug and Sis

Friday, September 25, 2009

Thursday, September 24, 2009

And He Wrote for Me

I awoke to an empty bed. It was cold and lonely. Ivy was stirring, so I quickly fed her and then went in search of my love. I needed him close.

There I found him sitting in a comfy chair, the soft glow of lamplight surrounding him, and he was writing. He was writing for me.

The Souls of Five
for Brianna Morrison

Of prose
She ponders the beauty of things small
Of beauty
She measures in one hand the simple
In the other, the incomprehensible

Of weakness
She wears victory like a ring of daisies on her head
Of victory
She wanders far and alone for children lost

Of courage
She carries the souls of five in her heart
She holds the others in her hand
Of fear
Fear is afraid of her

Of death
She has died since, many deaths
Truer than young men who die in war
Bloodier than by sword
Slower than by drowning

Of life
She is more alive than Spring
The song of five is on her lips
She breathes the names of the others
She lives truer than the color green, and
She has yet to come alive

She has yet to kiss the faces of five
While the others dance beside her.

by: Ryan Morrison

Sunday, September 20, 2009

So Alive

Class quote for my college graduating Class of 2004:

"Don't ask yourself what the world needs. Ask yourself what makes you come alive and then go do that. Because what the world needs is people who have come alive." -Howard Thurman

I am very much alive.

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Make It a Doppio

It's been one of those mornings. Ryan has a thing at the church and the children and I are goin' it alone. Just when I think I have this taking care of 2 kids by myself thing down, they double team me. The crying has been out of control, and until a few minutes ago, I felt out of control.

But now I'm better.


Doppio Espresso over ice with a splash of cream

and a packet of raw sugar sprinkled over the top.