Saturday, December 13, 2008

18 Months...A Letter to my Son Bennet

Has it really been a year and a half my brave Bennet Ryan? It feels like just yesterday I held your sweet little body in my arms. Oh the pleasure of feeling you settle right in...like you were home. Of all the babies, you were the one I got to hold first and while I felt like a mom when you were in my womb, and I felt like a mom when I looked at you and touched you gently for 3 days while you were in your isollette, the minute I held you, I knew that being your mommy was the greatest gift I'd ever been given. I was made for it. I don't know why daddy and I only got to enjoy you for 3 days, but I do know that I'm eternally grateful for every second we spent together. I carry you in my heart every day, sweet baby. You will always be our first born son and you will always bear your daddy's name. Thank you for being so brave. Having you as our boy was an answer to our prayers and we can't wait to see you again. Until then...missing you.

Love,
Mommy



9 comments:

  1. That was beautiful. I so enjoy watching Sylas that sometimes I forget that there are 5 other little babies waiting for you in heaven. Thank you for sharing them all with us.

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  2. Bennet is beautiful! Thanks for sharing this with us.

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  3. Thank you for sharing your letter to your precious first born son.
    Joyfully,

    Misty in Texas

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  4. Brianna, I can't imagine your pain and yearning as you wait to see your other children again someday. I am very thankful for your faith in the Lord, and even though it's hard to have sometimes, you DO have hope. Even though this season may be hard for you while you think of your other children, please continue to know that GOD WILL NEVER LEAVE YOU. He is by your side every moment of every day, even when you feel most alone. He gives us an unexplainable joy, peace, and strength that no person could ever give. Your son Sylas is adorable, and may God grant you good health and peace as you finish the last weeks of your pregnancy. Merry Christmas to you and your family from Amber in Mason City, IA.

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  5. So very touching, thank you for sharing. My heart aches for you.

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  6. Thank you for sharing your heart, how absolutely beautiful.

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  7. Thank you for sharing your letter with us - Bennet I am sure was an amazing baby. I am so sorry for your loss. We are holding your family especially close to God during our prayers during this holiday season.

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  8. You are in my thoughts as these days approach.

    May God wrap His arms of healing around your heart.

    Lisa
    in Virginia

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  9. Remembering your precious Bennet. He is just precious.

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