Has it really been a year and a half my brave Bennet Ryan? It feels like just yesterday I held your sweet little body in my arms. Oh the pleasure of feeling you settle right in...like you were home. Of all the babies, you were the one I got to hold first and while I felt like a mom when you were in my womb, and I felt like a mom when I looked at you and touched you gently for 3 days while you were in your isollette, the minute I held you, I knew that being your mommy was the greatest gift I'd ever been given. I was made for it. I don't know why daddy and I only got to enjoy you for 3 days, but I do know that I'm eternally grateful for every second we spent together. I carry you in my heart every day, sweet baby. You will always be our first born son and you will always bear your daddy's name. Thank you for being so brave. Having you as our boy was an answer to our prayers and we can't wait to see you again. Until then...missing you.